you stagger, under the pouring rain. one eye half closed, swollen. enough to hold back the tears
choking a bottle with one hand. with the other, you push your long, drench hair away from your face
a cigarette, now dead, slips from your broken lip. the wind is getting stronger. so much, that you need to plant your feet. firmly
this wind is stitching your cold clothes to your bones
as if you’d care
you ask yourself how is this possible
how could you end up like this, right here
below you the sea is boiling, homicidal. one wind gust makes you slip, badly. your elbow. your bottle, it shatters. your ankle just bents, unnaturally
and instead of screaming in pain, you remain still, staring at the black waves with that look. with that grin
and you, slowly, get back up
you ask yourself how is this possible how are you still standing
it’s just nothing. salt water and wine mix with your cuts. but you, you don’t feel them. and what can one fall be, after a life spent plummeting. high waves and a storm, that’s nothing after a life spent drowning
time slows down. you recall all the humiliations, the pain, the hardship. your hard work. your sacrifices, your sleepless nights. the blood, the sweat, the tears
you ask yourself how is this possible how the fuck didn’t you kill yourself already
you suddenly go blind. you hear no sounds. an electrostatic blanket covers every inch of your skin. your pupils, like needles. lightning striking the ground just a few feet away from you a hollow roar begins to make its way into your ringing ears and as you regain your sight you wonder
how is this possible
I mean, you are still here. with your successes, your goals. your mission nothing broke you. nothing sank you yet
you managed to make up a life from nothing you already know it, that you’ll get ahead of everyone this is a war and you, you are a warrior. a silhouette, standing against a lightning storm a bolt of pure energy, so much you can’t even contain it maybe, just maybe, you actually have an answer
maybe just maybe there’s no storm that can take you away